I don’t talk much,
Not about the past anymore,
Not about how X hurt me, or that I went through Y,
I don’t speak of all the pain, struggle, the number of times I have wanted to end my life, end it all for good,
But that doesn’t mean I’m over it,
That doesn’t mean I don’t feel,
That doesn’t mean I don’t know your pain,
That doesn’t mean anything.
Stop your mind from jumping to conclusions,
Stop your ego from judging me.
My story is mine, I will share it if I need to,
And I’d only need to, to help lighten your load.
I don’t need it to hold grudges or blame,
To whine or stay stuck in a moment long gone.
I don’t need to prove the tons of things I’ve gone through,
I don’t need your sympathy,
I won’t explain myself for your egos satisfaction.
Free me from your expectations,
Because I won’t, I absolutely won’t live up to them.
– Ramona Arena, 3rd September, 2018.
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Open Up
Rules are meant to be rewritten
Theories are meant to be challenged
Conclusions are meant to be incomplete
Cuz the finite ain’t finite
And things ain’t what they seem.
Questions aren’t meant to be answered
Discovery is meant to be on-going
Seeking is to be an eternal quest
Cuz the finite ain’t finite
And we manifest that of which we dream.
It’s round, it’s square,
It’s here, but it’s also there
The dress is blue and the dress is green
Screw your illusions, I see the real deal
But the finite ain’t finite
You’re beyond all you staunchly believe.
Yeah the finite ain’t finite
Look beyond all that you perceive.
– Ramona Arena 2016.
Life…
And remember –
there is only one permanent thing in life.
It’s called change.
Everything you believe,
Everyone you know -including yourself,
Will change.
And the best part is –
All the years of your youth you spent breaking your bones,
Will count for nothing
Because you will be in therapy –
Completely lost,
For you’ve been forced to unlearn
All that you were tormented to learn.
Ahhh change.
Ahh life.
-Ramona Arena 2016
Inspired whilst reading John White’s poem ‘Dear Youth’.
RA 