Everyday

Wake up.

I’m alive.

Why.

Brush my teeth.

Eyes so dull.

Spit with disdain.

Dejected.

Disillusioned.

With humanity, the universe,

Gods and life.

Chant.

Meditate.

Music.

Study.

Pets.

Nothing.

Not distracted.

No goals.

No ambition.

No will.

No fight.

No strength.

Not hopeful.

Faithless.

Pointless.

Everyday.

One constant thought.

One hounding feeling.

I’m alive.

Why.

-Ramona Arena 2016

 

I was built for bigger things

Than loving some man,

Taking care of him,

Living, sharing, traveling, creating together…

Well. That’s what they all say.

 

But they don’t know that you’re not just ‘some’ guy.

That I don’t need bigger things.

That I have no direction to follow, if you aren’t my home.

That ambition, achievement are repulsive & futile,

Never a compromise, nor option when it comes to us, to our love.

-Ramona Arena 2016.

From my heart to yours…

Stand under the rays

Of the sun with open arms.

Surrender with eyes shut tight,

Heart open wide.

 

Let the light of purity,

Heal every nook and cranny;

Evaporate anything that lays buried or hidden,

Which is no longer of benefit to you.

 

Let the light of love

Fill any holes

Without even letting you know,

They were bare

 

Let the light of forgiveness

Beam upon you kindly

As you allow the light,

To penetrate your soul,

Purify your mind.

 

Release it all,

With deep breaths of sweetness,

Everything you possess,

Except the peace

Which causes you to smile within,

Even though you deny it.

 

Accept the love,

Dance in the blessings.

The sun shines for you dearest,

With all her might!

Get drunk with gratitude

Let it be your light,

So even if the sun does set,

You’ll sail through every tide!

Our Abundance!

There is a place

Where you and I will soon meet again.

Eyes fixed upon each other,

Relieved with gratitude.

For we have found with and within ourselves,

The divinity of eternity

The sanctity of commitment

The answered prayer of love.

And so, we stand intoxicated.

Deep in the familiar embrace,

Of a hundred thousand lifetimes,

Where we are safely back home at last.

This, is our blessing called abundance!

-©Ramona Arena 2016

Answers that I seek and want,
Do their best to evade me.
Another sunrise shows up,
To taunt, humiliate me.

My very existence,
Is that of a hollow drum.
Broken strings,
Warp a Gibsons perfect strum.

Beguiled,
Forlorn,
Pages from the midst of my lifes’ story,
Gone.

Must we always finish each chapter,
Or is it trivial paltriness?
Market shares wouldn’t feel the plunge,
Of a carefully crafted mess.

Unable to connect,
Vacuous as death,
Desperately floundering,
Life, I’m bowing out of your test.

-©RamonaArena2015

Baring It All.

Just as the cool dew of morn
Kisses every blade of green
You don’t have to smile, she cooed
With moisturising timidity.

Parched, like dry, cracked land
For oh so long
He’d forgotten the taste of rain,
As her words he absorbed.

Tis better than the alternative
He grimaced unwittingly.
For he meant to flash another smile
Maintaining appearances & dignity.

Her tone of vanilla
Took on a softer hue
In order to lift the floodgates
And let the water through.

Leave it be
Let the candle burn.
Don’t worry about the flicker,
It’s a part of it’s sojourn.

Her gaze lay fixed
Upon his stare
Tears also make moments
Memorable and rare.

He looked at her suspiciously
As the winds of caution blew
Dark clouds rolled in continuously,
Squeezed dry, leaking through the roof.

With defences disguised in the form of clothes,
No recollection of when she stripped him bare,
He now lay covered in those very drops of dew
Reflecting her light through the sunshines’ glare.

-Ramona Arena 2014.

Hush

Hush.
Shhh.
Don’t say a word.

Unless your fingers and tongue
Tell my bare skin what you heard.

So hush.
Quiet.
Don’t you dare speak.

Let tepid pearls of consolidated sweat,
Have us drown in saccharine sheets.

-Ramona Arena 2015.

Too Much to Handle?

I’m not promising that I’ll be easy to be with.
All I can promise,
Is that I will love you,
Like no other can or ever will.

That you’ll revel in every minute of the fact,
That my hand is the only one clasping yours.

That I’ll be the sturdiest path you’ve ever set foot on,
And with it, I’ll be the silence in the chaos, you struggle to seek.

I’ll be the voice of honesty,
Without caring if you can’t stand my song.
I’ll smother you in affection with attention,
Constantly in public, and at home.

I’ll be a ride so crazy,
You’ll have had your fill of theme parks.
I’ll be the dance of motivation and lazy,
For the battery of your happiness,
I’ll be your permanent recharge.

It’s easy if you really want,
All you have to do is let go.
Of everything and everyone,
That’s done and dusted, years ago.

The mind is a tricky place,
It festers and likes to breed.
My heart is your saving grace,
Don’t be a fool, just heed.

But remember this clearly,
Remember this straight,
I won’t stop living,
Cuz you keep me on wait.

Whenever you’re ready
To behave like man
Despite all my shortcomings
To love me as I am.

Pick up the phone,
The move lays in your hands.
I’ll be everything you’ve prayed for,
With a bonus of good madness, for all your lifes’ plans.

– RAMONA ARENA 2014

The Coffee Shop of Change.

Consistency would be the death of my spirit she thought.
He asked if she was hungry.
She wasn’t.
But he insisted.
So she settled for a Croque Monsieur & Cappuccino.

He looked into her eyes asking if something was the matter.
She bit into the crispy toast with the melting cheese sliding past the side of her mouth; she smiled.
Perhaps I don’t know myself as well as I assume I do: she thought but didn’t dare mention.
She nodded and looked right back at him saying, ‘thank you’.

She found comfort in his consistent knowledge of her happiness.
Maybe stability isn’t such a bad thing after all.
He held her hand and gave it a squeeze.

‘Now give me a bite will you? It looks so damn good!’.
For the first time, she didn’t bicker and moan about him not ordering his own food.
She laughed aloud as he picked up the plate,
Looking back at everything that was.

This – him, me, the sandwich, this moment … was worth the wait.
It was worth it all.
Love is always the right answer.

– RAMONA ARENA 2014

Carpe Diem!

Lover!!!!!

Hellloooo!!

Did you know I miss you?
And I think of you in everything I see??

The air around me is filled with you!!
Have you cast some sort of magic spell?
Am I surrounding your world like this as well?
Do you feel the spark of the socket kissing the plug,
With an open mouth and mind and heart?
Does your heart feel happy at the vision of me,
That appears in your mind randomly??

Do you laugh at songs as they start to play,
Are you embracing my presence from so far away?
Do you feel me grind as the dj hits the decks?
Can you still hear my voice through my messages and texts?
I’m a silly child that’s running free,

Living life gratefully.
Who knows what’ll come or what we’ll let slip by,
Lets shake off all our demons, Surging forth, lets dive!
Life & opportunities are precious things,
Lets forget about tomorrow, immerse in all today brings!
©RAMONAARENA2014